afraid
and far away
we watch life pass
right in front of our eyes
unable to patch up the past
we live with holes
in our shoes
in our pockets
in our hearts
a fixated focus on forgetting
tells the mind memory is more than just remembering
it is feeling
it is reliving and sitting upright
at all times
walking
wears down worries
but when you are already worn
its hard to put up with the wind
this weather
has no end
it begins
and begins
and i wonder will it ever end
again we ask
questions we dont want the answers to
afraid
so we refuse to follow
any direction other than down
the sea level
has seen you
beneath its surface
submerged like a coral reef
catching waves of grief
all other options
are cop outs
surrounded by decisions
we pick none
just sit and stare at the sun
afraid
we keep watching
life and love
a leisure's gaze tells us to stay
behind the chained fence
afraid to change and actually mean it
i wonder when this will ever end
